Sunday, July 31, 2005

do i mean anythin to u.
i know the answer is no.
but i just dun wish to hear the truth.

ahh. i'm goin mad. so much to study.

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 7:54 PM

7:54 PM

Saturday, July 30, 2005

some anime songs are like crap. sometimes they sing so off key i wonder how they even got the contract to cut their album.

haha. anyways mikuni shimokawa has lived up to her name again. (:
by far all her songs have proved to be worth listenin to, rite yuujin ? haha. now i'm listenin to her song entitled kohaku. =D

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 6:59 PM

6:59 PM

Friday, July 29, 2005

there's a friendly with ngee ann poly tmr! at 11am. it's like whoa. so early. a part of me feels like goin but then i have to study for my tests next week u see. chem SPA bio and econs! packed into mon and tues.

and regarding the last entry, it happened again today! *i think steph and wanqi would be in a better position to appreciate this. haha. sorry la. it's more of a private joke.* haha. (van is so gonna whack me up.) the thing is that we didn't purposely look out for him la. but twice in the canteen during our recess and lunch we met him. after which we had GP in the com lab then when me and wanqi rushed out of the lab, after class of course, we literally bumped into him agn. wahahas. mjc is such a small place. that's very true.

we had our squash PT today. ran 10 rounds. did 3 sets of "physical corner" exercises. tough but accomplished. (:
damn pissed off with pimples. in general. annihilate them!!!
not forgetting that today's rachel tan xi'en's birthday!!! i'm SO SORRY! (for the bad colour combination) and for not sms-ing u earlier and stuff. really. hahaa. =p~ i remember okay. hehe. kae i can't take the ugly colour combination. so.. let's redo that part. happy 17th birthday rachhh!!! gotta catch up with u one day la. we've got lots to share about yea. though i know u hardly read my blog. ):

PS. thanks guys for all the taggys. it's so heartwarming. haha. wth am i talkin about.

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 7:42 PM

7:42 PM

Thursday, July 28, 2005

these few days we have been seeing alot of christian around in school.
haha. somethin queer happened.

we were just talkin about how often we've been bumping into him and voila. he suddenly appears from the bend around the corner. lols. we couldn't help laughin. it was such a coincidence. cos apparently we've met like 3 times (just on that day) already - before school started at the canteen, bio lecture, during lunch at the canteen.
anyway we received weird stares from him and his friend so we shyed away awkwardly to our classroom.

haha. tmr's friday. another step forward. another hectic week ahead of me.

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 7:57 PM

7:57 PM

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

hey. season 2 of full metal panic had just been released!!! hahas. that made my day. or what's left of it.
hmm. gotta do tutorials. i got this uneasy feeling that everyone's ahead of me in doin assignments. next week is a stressful week with another 2 tests, bio and econs tests, chem SPA and bio mock SPA comin up. i mean i've gotta memorise so many stuff! it's just crazie. too much for my puny brain.

i think im goin nuts. everytime i see him my heart just melts.

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 10:53 PM

10:53 PM

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

crap. i had to come online (again) to blog about this. i realise that i can write out extremely ridiculous answers during lecture tests when i actually know the answers. i shan't talk about the recent math test since i had already placed it at the back of my mind. instead, let's talk about chem. haha. as if that's gonna get any better.

here's an example.
Correct answer : Aluminium is a metallic element. It consists of positive metal cations surrounded by a sea of delocalised valence electrons which is a giant metallic structure.

What i wrote (duh, aka wrong answer.) : Aluminium has a metallic structure. It consists of a sea of delocalised electrons surrounded by positive metal cations.

like excuse me. that's a whole lot of difference!
oh yea, i found out that i wrote that for my mids as well. now what i would like to know is, what is wrong with me!? zz. maybe in my mind i've been psycho-ing myself to write that theory. boo. fail chem again.

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:33 PM

11:33 PM

i can hardly find time to update my blog nowadays! hahas. sorry ppl.

these few days we had many tests. nearly broke down. but however i wanna thank my girls of o5s2o5 for being there for one another! hahas. especially wanqi, steph and cherlyn! yupps! and of cos everyone else also la. (: thanks so much wanqi (and augustine. haha. =D) for the late study sessions during the past few tuesdays and thursdays. i feel that i've benefited from them. hees. squash practice is quite taxin on me becos i get really tired out after trainin. and my wednesdays (early day end at 2pm.) are spent squashin away. hais. my parents got me a tutor already. now i have to make some private time for myself.

ha. it feels great to feel close to someone. well, at least it shows that you are wanted and remembered rite. (:

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 9:50 PM

9:50 PM

Saturday, July 23, 2005

whao. i didn't know that i had such avid readers ever since i started my very first blog on uj. haha. (:

anyway, yesterday i received my result slip and yea i failed my mid years. this never happened to me before. i never failed such a major examination in my entire 17 years. the only subject that i've ever failed was my chem during the prelims where i scored a D7. my dad is desperately trying to find me a tutor.

after school i helped out with the squash notice board, since i didn't bring my squash racket. not because i forgot but because i thought it was gym training every friday. ahh well. anyways mr naresh was nice enough to provide food (pizza and cakes) and drinks (pepsi twist) for us. haha. so thoughtful of him to have remembered us. however, we didn't manage to finish the whole board. by 8.45, the rest of the squashers left and i waited for fabian who happens to live near me. in the end, i helped out with their notice board too and den spent some time talkin to fabian at the swimmin pool. he had to do some notice board stuff. quite fun la. i enjoy such talks in the midst of a stressful term. =D

this mornin was seriously screwed up. didn't set alarm thus i woke up late.! not funny cos i felt really guilty. ):
couldn't find this and that. ended up sobbing early in the morning. even the college day was screwed up. (at least in my context it was.) overall it was fine cos i managed to hide all the embarrassin moments. after the whole college day, i wanted to go out. but no one was free and i didn't have my phone contacts with me cos i exchanged my phone with atiqah the day before. felt so.. alone.

when i got home my mummy called to tell me that she didn't want to get me the bottle of perfume i wanted from m'sia because she didn't like the smell of it. she said it was too sweet. however i think it's fine. zz. (apparently it's discontinued in sg becos it wasn't popular. i wonder why. haha.) in the end i just told her to suit herself and so she told me that she won't get it for me. so that kinda upsetted me. i mean if i ever think of wanting to get it in sg i would not be able to. sians.

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 6:53 PM

6:53 PM

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

so bored. lazy to update my blog. anyways, everyone in the house is busy changing their handsets. (with the exception of me, of course. ()*#!*^#*(! the guy who stole my phone at suntec last december, two freakin days before christmas.)

i was quite stressed up today becos i had to finish up my commentary for GP before 12, get the newspaper article, read, understand and do my EoM by 3, squash meetin (to discuss about certain issues) with teacher in charge, followed by a dry run of college day. after which i had to train (includes physical training) at the squash court. phew. gonna drop dead soon. besides i've gotta do my homework. ):

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 8:55 PM

8:55 PM

Monday, July 18, 2005

hey i jus came back from squash. or should i say dinner. haha. spent alot of money today (cos i took a cab back in order to reach home before 10. later my mum scold mah. anyway, end up my parents not at home la! should have taken the bus. then i'll save some money! =D)

hmm. squash today was great. haha. v fun la. did court sprints and footwork/stretchin. yee teng played a match with me - score 15-11. me with 15. was quite close la. i think i was too nervous while playin today. then coach made us run rounds on the track. this was when i did somethin embarrassin again. i tripped and fell backwards while runnin along the drain! and now i cannot rest my palm on the com table cos it hurts! okay. i used my hand to break the fall or else i would have suffered from even worse injuries. well, it's swollen now. guess i can't touch squash for now. ):

econs lecture still runnin through my mind.

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 9:43 PM

9:43 PM

Sunday, July 17, 2005

i feel like squashin again.

so stressed. dunno how to do math (4th tutorial of differentiation.), chem equilibrium, econs essay and bio ecology tutorial. ): in addition to that i've to make time for my revision. haha. that means that i'll have to cut down on squash time! =(

i jus went down to play 2 games of billard with my bro. won one lost one. anyways, i saw some of the tpjc squashers playin at my place. wah. never call me down! boo. haha. we cannot lose to them next year yea. mj squashers! let's jiayou kae!

time to do EOM for pw. sian.

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 9:59 PM

9:59 PM

Saturday, July 16, 2005

today we had a leadership workshop thingy in school so we were told to sit with our respective ccas for group discussions on how we could further improve our ccas. anyways, wanqi, fir and some others didn't come so it wasn't as fun as it would have been. haha. after that me joseph eugene and atiqah proceeded on with "team bonding" (like there were only 4 of us.) and came up with ideas in which we could incoperate into our time schedule. yup.

then i came back home at about 4+. tried to do some homework, notice the tried. but in the end i fell asleep! oh nooooooooooo. i shouldn't be fallin asleep! and i cannot afford to at this juncture. it's either pass promos go to j2 or retain and DIE. ): i'm just exaggeratin a little.

anyways, i slept at 5 and made many many dreams. cos i woke up in the middle of one while sleepin on the livin room sofa. haha. i dreamt that i was on a high platform. i wanted to get home cos it was rainin cats and dogs with lightning. but as i walked back, i realise that the surroundins were extremely familiar. i was already in my condo. however, everytime i walked into my block, i end up at another block. as if i went into the wrong block. but i was quite sure i went into the right block. haha. quite scary la. cos of the lightning. ):

after that i dreamt that i was along the corridor at dunman. i saw andy and jasmine! hahaha. like weird rite. then they weren't happy with me cos i remembered that jas kept sulkin or somethin. anyway we kinda quarrelled. i remembered it in detail because i felt so wronged and awkward. after that i landed up in a shoppin mall. lol! saw wanqi and augustine. double lol! anyways wanqi came up to me and asked if i was alright but i replied in a cold manner. (dun ask me why i did that. haha. i have no idea.) after that i woke up for dinner. yea. i slept for 3 over hours. and i did only one part of differentiation! 1(c). there's 1(a) all the way to 1(j) or somethin. and that's only one question. of one subject. how to make time for all subjects! zz.

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 8:13 PM

8:13 PM

squash trainin's been tirin. especially with all the court exercises we have been doin in order to practice our court footwork. hahas. i'm dead beat man. i just wanna hit the sack. zz!~ after playin squash until 10+ downstairs, we (me, anting, elton, eugene and later fabian) continued to stay and talk crap la. haha. i taught elton the game of squash! (:
elton said that i have great ball sense and can handle balls well. *cos we played floorball earlier durin pe as well.* hahaha~ it was fun la. anyway i'm glad that he enjoyed it as much as i did. *too bad fabian came down a lil late, or else we would have been able to have taught him the game as well. =p

today's bio SPA was quite crap. the poor fishes had to tolerate us - starin at them the whole time. besides i'm surprised that the constant temperature fluctuation hasn't affected them yet. well, i didn't have sufficient time to draw a clear and defined conclusion. it was a piece of slip shot work. the graph was not labelled! careless rite! zz. made the same mistake twice. just know that it'll be bad. couldn't really understand the concept behind the decrease in the rate of respiration. ):

i realise that i have to start on revision soon. cos while everyone is desperately muggin in the comfort of their homes, i'm squashin all the way and not studyin! ha. that's why i have to make full use of my time.

well, i'm reallyyyyy sleepy now. tmr gotta go for the leaders workshop at LT1. ha. all the comms will be there. yay. so of cos pweetiee boy will be there. yea. (:

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 12:08 AM

12:08 AM

Thursday, July 14, 2005

my chinese oral is over and done with!

haha. apparently, i remained quite calm throughout the whole examination. i remember that durin the O's i was so much more nervous. i even forgot to take back my i/c! haha. at least this time i remembered rite. not so paiseh. (:

anyway, i did somethin lame today. i think wanqi would know what it is. only the 3 of us know! haha. wah i think we cannot tell anyone at all. cos i feel darn stupid.

tmr bio SPA. sighs. everyday there's a major event. zz.

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 9:52 PM

9:52 PM

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

i didn't purposely walk past pweetiee boy's class today!
z. it was the fastest way to the LT anyway.

well, today was a short day. prob the shortest day of the week. school's gettin more stressful and scary. it's all about passin the promos already. everyone's goin into mad-studyin-non-stop mode. i can feel the pressure while slackin in the school canteen (cos everyone else is busy doin tutorials!) i feel lazy.

many of my classmates skipped house day. it's quite borin. there're a few areas of concern to work on. like makin miranda more bonded amongst ourselves by creatin a strong sense of identity, that would better improve our team spirit. haha. i believe that given some time, the house comm should be able to overcome these problems.

after that i spoke to dan for a while, (hahaha. a long while.) then headed home to practice squash. heh. i had a gd workout. eugene kept scorin tyco shots (those really low drop shots that are extremely difficult to return) whenever he plays against me! wahahas. an ting is improvin tremendously! glad for her. =D

tmr's chinese oral. though it's only like that few minutes speakin chinese in front of the teachers, i'm terrified! haha. can't speak chinese for nuts. ): they'll laugh the moment they hear that my dad's from china. =x sighs. i guess even my dad is disappointed at my standard of the language. anyhow, wish me luck!
god bless. (:

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 8:52 PM

8:52 PM

Monday, July 11, 2005

hey hyde.

yea. regardin ur tag on the board, i agree that my recent posts are kinda weird. okay. fact is that i've done badly. haha. i'm just tryin to keep my spirits up. i wanna stay optimistic despite the circumstances. =D
this is to ensure that when promos come, i'm prepared to face it and beat it hands down! heh. then i'll *happily get promoted. (whatever. no one cares two hoots anyway.)

anyways, squash is just gettin better with each trainin. the PT is fun. we've become so accustomed to court sprints i bet our shuttle run confirm below 10 seconds. hahaha. with the coach around, things just automatically spice up! (:

school has been rather okay for me. steph hasn't been herself lately. haha. cheer up girl~ hopin to see the same old steph again. and take care of urself yea?
wednesday is house day. wonder what we'll be doin. anyways, today i heard gd news from vanessa! *durin squash. ok. might not be all that good. but it's somethin new and refreshin. there're some questions floatin around in my mind but i'll let it stay there. for now. (:

seems like cher took a snap shot of pweetiee boy somehow. hmm. gotta retrieve it from her yea. hees.

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 9:01 PM

9:01 PM

Sunday, July 10, 2005

i spoke to a childhood friend who is currently in mj last night.

i realise the seriousness of this matter and i won't take it lightly anymore. it's gonna be more studyin for me cos the desire to do well is purely natural. i dun wanna be disheartened and i know this mids will affect me in one way or another. cos it isnt easy to pick oneself up after a fall. the promos aren't gonna get any easier. in fact, it's gonna be more of a challenge den the mids. i have to get a B or at least a C to get promoted.

the lord is my strength! =D

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 7:55 PM

7:55 PM

Friday, July 08, 2005

silly me. thinkin that somethin would come out of nothin. as the sayin goes, no pain no gain. i realise that the price we jc students have to pay in order to reap the fruits of our labour is seriously quite substantial. takin a look at those who did really well, like A's and B's, they're kinda nerdish. and they are studyin practically every minute of the day. everyday chiong home hit the books den hit the bed den hit school. haha. nono. that's not right. at least it doesn't sound right.

of cos i didn't do well la. expected. but i was hopin for some tyco-ness! but it didn't come. not that it had to anyway.

on a lighter note, i passed GP with a C6. chinese E8! whahaha. bio, math F. *which i seriously shouldn't have. im sorry.* chem O. econs ???. ):
pweetiee boy made an annoucement durin PCCG. super shuai. =D prob the only highlight of the day. and squash of cos. it never fails to make my day. the school bought squash rackets so we can all play! yay. haha.

for now until promos i have to add oil alr. seriously, reality has finally hit me. i never thought of being retained until recently. frightening but very real. when i asked my math cher about my results she was like. aiyooooooooooo~ *drags* very bad leh. -in a soft tone so that i won't break into tears or somethin.- eh 17 i think. nononono. and while i was hopin that it was some kinda mistake, maybe i got a 20+. she said i think 14 ar. i was -pengs.- anw, whatever. she told me to consult her when i encounter difficulties. hais. dunno la. how come so jialats. i got no idea. actually i got no inspiration to write this entry but den i have to say somethin. just anythin.

cos i dun wanna retain. i'm scared.

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 7:50 PM

7:50 PM

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

shyt.

im gonna get 2 F's. yes. math n bio. (bio. never study biological molecules. the biggest mistake ever. math. not enough practice. ya!)
and GP of cos.
hmm. i got AO for chem. econs have to rely on essay. if fail den i fail lor. heh!

siriusly, i'm gettin kinda worried. ):
for everyone else who did badly, it's only the mids. don't forget the promos - 70%! can still buck up! so can someone please kick my ass. zz. =x

today's not a good squash day for me. kena whacked by the racket and by the squash ball.
now my left arm has red marks.

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 9:20 PM

9:20 PM

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

):

ok it's a fail for GP and a 50% for econs. this is killing me. die la!

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 8:56 PM

8:56 PM

Monday, July 04, 2005

hmm i played maple for the whole of today.

guess what ? i think i get scammed v easily. haha. the blue moonlight and red matty isn't worth 300k but i thought it was quite cheap alr! haha. dumb me. ok la. anyways the panlid isn't worth 480k either. so i got cheated of about 200k. ahhh! ):

zzzzz!

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 10:20 PM

10:20 PM

Sunday, July 03, 2005

sorry guys, haven't been updatin as of late.

i've been catchin up with steph and fung recently. like on thursday we went out to watch initial D! haha. it's really nice. edison damn shuai. hehe. might download it online. (:

and yesterday they came over for tennis. quite fun. the guy thought that i had tennis basics. whoa. it's like i wanted to get coachin but i didn't manage to find one. haha. ok la. den we went to long john for dinner. (i think we had that for 3 days consecutively. ahaha.) and went for a pool session. marcus and steph sent me back. haha. (:

jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 10:53 AM

10:53 AM